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Cake day: June 9th, 2023

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  • The only way leftist will win any political ground is by winning allies

    Screaming down every person who you have a disagreement with politically will only solidify their dislike for the people you claim to represent

    It’s funny to me seeing you claim that the other people lack awareness and empathy when you seemingly fail to grasp that people don’t enjoy the way you are portraying your political views





  • Bit of a silly question:

    I got quite the overkill server‡ for free‡‡ a little while ago and I’ve been struggling to find stuff to do with it

    What kind of stuff do you self host?

    Basically all I’ve got currently is TrueNAS Scale running on mine and it feels like a bit of a waste just running that.

    ‡ My server is from 2012 but it’s got dual hexacore Xeons (can’t recall exact model), 192GB of RAM, and about 40 TB of storage in Raid-Z2. The storage came from my old crusty NAS, I didn’t get that for free.

    ‡‡ Well mostly free, I was told I could have it if I got it out of they’re garage which took about 2 days.


  • I’m primarily on my Blahaj account but I’m currently using one of my alts as Jerboa is crashing when I try to log into my Beehaw account (which requires me to clear the app storage to switch accounts) and Blahaj is currently having server issues again.

    Personally I dig the vibes of the Blahaj folks

    Mostly I sub to communities all over the fediverse, though this alt is a bit more bare as I mostly keep them separated in terms of where I interact.






  • Not as much painting as I’d like but since I got diagnosed with ADHD and started taking meds for it my ability to budget time has exploded.

    I can actually start things with the confidence of being able to do them. It was life changing for both my mental and physical health.

    I don’t paint minis everyday, more like a day or 2 per week (we’ve all got a pile of shame) and the other things are also usually a day or 2 per week. Photography gets sprinkled into most things though.

    No kids here either which is pretty nice mostly, but I do spend sometime with the niece and nephew. They usually dig me explaining things to them about how things work or how things came to be etc. Or hell even just bouncing ideas around and looking up history topics, they’re pretty fun but a handful when I see them.

    I’ll have to join those communities for sure, when I first hopped over here I couldn’t find much for those things and I’m going to share some for sure there. I’ve shared some of my others in other communities using some of my alt accounts so I’ll probably share those links there as well.

    Thank you for the suggestion.


  • In the darkness that is existence there can still be beacons of light.

    Ending one’s existence is the end of all of that. No more light, no more dark, just nothing.

    I stick around due to those beacons of light in the dark and honestly the more time goes on the more I realize that there’s actually quite a lot of light to be had.

    Yeah work sucks for 10 hours a day, but that time allows me to enjoy my hobbies.

    The pleasure of a newly painted miniature, the bliss of hiking a new trail, the exhilaration of biking further and faster than I did before, finding new places and things to photograph.

    Enjoying a nap in the shade of tree on a lightly windy day, watching the river flow by while I forget to cast my line, watching the clouds flit through the sky while laying in the grass.

    If you end it all the only thing left behind is the pain for those who knew you. The gap left in their lives caused by your absence.

    Sometimes their big gaps: lovers, friends, coworkers. Sometimes their small: the regular who always stops by, the person with the cool hair you see sometimes, the person who you talked to on the bus that day who you still sometimes see. But the gaps are still there.

    I’ve known a lot of people who have taken their own life, the lives of others, and had their lives taken by other people. Those gaps will always be there.

    Stick around, look to the outside world, and reach out. There is light in the world if you look for it, don’t let the darkness that dominates the social media landscape be all that you see.





  • It’s kind of hard to describe really

    It’s like you’re lost in the movements, you’re caught in the flow, the strain is no longer a struggle, you just flow, you move and it moves.

    Your reps go on, your sets flow together, the down time ceases being a factor, you’re there.

    The presence of mind and body, you are there, you are now, you move.

    Numbers mean nothing but you know when the reps are done, the exercises flow together.

    Someone could call your name and you wouldn’t know it as it’s not in your mind.

    There’s only the movement, there’s only the flow.

    There is no you, there is no weights, there is no other, there is only movement and flow.

    And when it’s over you know it, yet feel like you could go a second time through the whole affair. And sometimes I do and then I feel Godly for the whole day and sometimes the next.

    And the sleep quality that night is beyond description.

    I’ve hit that state many times doing calisthenics (my typical workout), when out biking, and when out hiking. It’s always the same really.

    Hour long calisthenics routine? What’s a second hour really?

    20 mile bike ride? I could go another round, why not snag some dinner from that food cart I got lunch at?

    15 mile hike? Well tonight’s going to be even better with all the stars, what’s a second trip around the mountain?

    You don’t get there immediately, you won’t get there every time, but when you do it’s bliss.